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At the age of 21, Celine has by her family been forced to become a
nun in a cloistered convent.
She tried in vain to resist, but as the youngest daughter in a very wealthy
believing family,
it was expected she did so, to preserve the family honour.
(And the churches riches.)

"Give me that gold cross! All your belongings and future inheritances
are now property of the convent.
And that fine dress. Take it and all the rest of your
clothes off. It will be sold to the benefite of the poor.
We will provide you will all, what you will nead for the future in
the convent !
Your name will from now on be sister Aurela.
You must forget all about your former name and life !"
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"She
is ready for the journey brother Magnus. "
"The
chains are for you own safety sister Aurela. They will protect
you against the devilīs temptations, until you are safely locked up
at the convent, where you are going to stay !"
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 Celine
sits down on the cold stones in her new home. The journey had
been long, and she believes, they have been sailing some of the way,
but as she had been locked into a closed carrige all the way, she
donīt know where she is, and will never be told.
After the heavy door is slammed and the nuns turned the keys in th
lock, she is surrounded by an overwhelming stillness. The
smallest movements make her nech chain rattle loudly, and in between
she believes, she can hear another girl crying somewhere.
Hungry and homesick Celine lies down on the cold floor and cries
herself to sleep in first night in the convent.
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Every sunday a
sister comes into her cell
to teach her humility.
"Twenty more Ava Marias sister Aurela, and
this time louder and clearer !
And then I will give you twenty more strockes.
Your corrupt flesh must be punish, so you can gain a pure mind
!"
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 Let
alone to a life in loneliness, boredom , pain and need, the only
thing to do, is to try to sleep and dream herself out of the misery.
She thinks of the warm beds her elder sisters right now are sleeping
in, and their full stomachs.
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 But
every time Celine, now sister Aurela, awakenes from her dreams, she
is still in this awfull cell, and still wearing the awfull iron
collar.
"I am so hungry and thirsty, and it hurts all over.
Why did they have me send to this terrible place ?
I have done nothing wrong,
I have never harmed anybody.
I want to go home - please will someone help me?"
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But nobody knowing
she is there
dreams of helping her.
Every time the door
opens, the only thing she can expect is more pain and humiliations.
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Isabellaīs story.
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Isabella entered a
convent by the same reason as poor Celine . However because
Isabella came from an important family, she was to become a real nun,
as we know them, instead of been thrown into a dungeon as the more insignificant
girls were.
Unfortunately
Isabella couldnīt forget her former life outside the walls.
Every Sunday at noon, a handsome young man, she had been in
love with, before she knew, she had to become a nun, came to the
convent wall to see his beloved.
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One day they were discovered.
Isabella was at once taken before the mother superior.
The sentence was hard:
Isabella was from now on to be locked up in the basement, just
as the insignificant girls. Her family was only to be told,
she had moved to another convent, and would never find out, what
really had happened.
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"Come here,
you slut ! "
"We will see to, that your sinfull fleash will never again temp
any innocent young men."
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"Down the
stairs girl ! "
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"No ! - You
canīt leave me chained like this !
Please come back - I will be obedient !
Come back - Please !"
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Unluckily the nuns
did come back. Because to Isabella their return didnīt mean
any realief, but only more pain and humiliations.
She was brought to
another cell, where she had to pray before a skull of nun, who
once as a beautiful young woman, had been forced into the
convent, and had spend her life in these cells.
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"Oh - No
! Will some poor girls, not yet born, sometime in the future
be forced to pray before my skull ?"
"Will my eyes also become empty dark holes,
as this unlucky woman`s?"
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The nun had been
listening at the door. She told the mother superior, that
Isabella hadnīt been praying, as she had been told to, but had been
whimpering instead, and had called the woman, who had died in the
same cell long ago, unlucky !
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Isabella was from
now on to be treated just like
the
insignificant girls and condemned
to suffer the same fate, as poor Celine and countless others through the centuries.
Naked and in chains she was to spend her life in loneliness.
Forgotten by everybody, who had ever felt anything for her.
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Days and monthsī
passes in boredom.
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The only interruptions
are when she has to go to the toilet, which consists of the floor of
her cell, where her wastes mixes with the bodily wastes of all the
girls, who have spend their lives here before her.
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- And when the nuns
each sunday come to her cell to inflict a punishment on her.
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Every time she has
been beaten, she spends the night crying.
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The days goes
slowly one after another.
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Isabella tries, as
so many before her, to dream herself out of the missery.
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Someone is comming.
Isabella can hear faint noises, of doors slamming and she can hear
other girls crying in the neighbouring cells.
Shall I try to talk to one of the nuns ?
They canīt hurt me more, than they already do.
I have to try ! I donīt whant to die in here.
Oh please God - Let them show some mercy.
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"Sister - I
am the daughter of a very wealthy man. I will pay you anything,
if you can help me out from here !"
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"Ha
! And with what are you going to pay ?
You donīt possess anything. Have you forgotten, you at your
arrival signed over all your belongings and future inheritances
to the convent ?
Tomorrow you will be punished for your stupid attempt. You will
realize, there is no escape from here!"
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That night
Isabella spend in despair.
Is she never again to see anything but this filthy cell. Is
she going to be torment by chronically hunger and thirst, and suffer
from the constant itching from having to lie in her own and long
dead girls excrements for the rest of her life ? How many
years will she survive ?
Oh no - Tomorrow she would be punished !"
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Isabella couldnīt
sleep that night. As she
saw, the first morning light through the small barred window of her
cell, she
knew it would not be long, before the mother superior would arrive
to her cell.
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"We must
punish your sinfull fleash, but this time I will be merciful.
Every Sunday for three months you will be birched, before receiving
your normal Sunday caning.
But if you ever again try in any way to get out from here, I will
have both your legs brocken"
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"It is for
your own good !
Donīt cry over your sinfull fleash. Your body means nothing.
We must beat the Devil out of you, so he will never temp you again !
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The rest of the
day Isabella spend crying more, than usually after a beating.
She had never in her life been a real believer. She had only
entered the convent because she had been persuaded to do so by her family.
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Why mom and dad
-
Why did you have me send here ?
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None of us really
believed in all that nonsense.
We only went to church every
Sunday, because all others did ! Why did I have to enter the
convent - Why ?
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Isabella receive
no answeres for her questions. The only sounds, she hear in
her cell durring the long days and nights, are her own breathing,
the constant buzzing from the flies and a rattle from her chains,
every time she moves a bit.
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So go the first
year and the second, only interrupted by the meagre meals, always
leaving her hungry, and the regular beatings with the cane, which
all the girls in the basement cells receive each Sunday.
Until suddently one morning a nun enters her cell -
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"Get up -
Lazy slut !
Your honourable sister Lady Mendoza is here to pay you a visit.
Put on this shift,
so her Ladyship will not be disturbed ."
What - A visitor - My sister !
But - Mendoza, that is the name of my fiancé ???
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"Candice
- Please !"
"Be quiet or you will be punished !
You must only talk if asked !
Now make a deap curtsy for your honourable sister. You must be
deeply grateful to her. It was your sister, who arranged your admission
to this convent, and saved the family honour."
"Hello Isabella ! I must say, you look much
different now, than when we lived together at home. I am
married to Ramos now, and are carrying his child."
"Candice ! You did this only to steal him from me !
It is ME he love.
You have ruined my life !
Do you know how it is to lie in chains for years in a dirty
cell hungry and beaten ?
Do you know how - - - "
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Early next morning.
"Get up disobedient
slut !
Or you will be birched before your caning !
Your four hours of sleep is over for tonight !"
As a punishment for insulting her sister, Isabella from now on had
to stand up all day every day, only allowed four hours of sleep each
night. On
top of this, she also had to receive twenty strockes with the cane
every morning. "
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Isabella spend the
rest of her life in the cell standing or leaning against the wall
twenty hours every day. Her
back and bottom soon became as hardened as a cowīs hide, so the
nuns regulary had to rip up her skin with a iron scraper, so she
again was able to feel the full pain from the daily cainings.
About half of the girls which entered the cloistered convents lived
to become thirty. About ten percent reached the age of forty.
One morning as a nun came into her cell to kick her awake, Isabella
didnīt get up. She was then 42 years old, but looked much
older.
The very same afternoon a new young girl, is lead into the cell,
and the iron collar, Isabella had worn, is locked around her
slim neck.
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That poor girl is
19 year old Jane Suffolk
A British citizen.
Jane donīt know her mother, Irene, already has spend years in this
convent Imprisonned as a madwoman.
When the beautiful Irene had married Janeīs father, her new
sister-in-law had become very jealous.
After Irene had only given birth to a girl, and havenīt
provided a male heir,
the sister-in-law saw her chance to convince the rest of the family,
it was best to have Irene
put away in a foreign convent as madwoman, so Janeīs father could
remarry.
The plan had worked - Jane was only told her mother had gone away,
and her new step-mother had
providet the family with two healthy sons.
The only problem now was Jane, who soon would become of age.
The solution was again the cloistered convent.
Jane thought she was going on a trip to Rome for studying art,
but
as the ship made a stop on the way at a Spanish harbour , two gendarmes
and a nun were waiting for her.
At the same time some nuns are removing Isabellaīs corpse from the
basement cell,
Jane arrives to the cloistered convent, and is taken before the mother
superior
"What is this
place? Why am I here?"
"Undress immediately
- You will not need that fine dress here, nor your undergarments.
You must also hand over all your jewellery.
All your belongings and future inheritances
are now property of the convent. "
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Only an hour later:
"Keep going
down -
You are not allowed to stop and look back.
You will be punished for this!"
Afraid of what is awaiting her in the basement,
not understanding why this is happening,
Jane has stopped and turned to the nuns
taking her to her cell.
Soon after she is sitting in Isabellaīs stools,
with her iron collar around her neck,
facing her new life of endless boredom,
weekly punishments, hunger and sickness.
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Her mother, Irene,
is still alive imprisonned in her
tower cell. Being here as a madwoman, she is not
to suffer, but only to be kept locked up.
Only virgins is allowed to suffer for mankind
in the basement cells.
Up here there is freash air, and even
it is hot in the sommer and very cold durring the winter,
it is much healthier, than down in the stinking
basement cells.
She never knows her beloved and long missed daughter
now is living in irons only 30 m under her, and
is like herself destined to die in chains
behind these walls.
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The mother superior
is
deaply suprised, when she one day sees
one of the girls from the basement cells
walking around at the first floor.
"WHAT ARE YOU
DOING UP HERE?
GET BACK DOWN TO YOUR CELL AT ONCE !"
"But sister Clarence allowed me to..."
"KEEP QUIET !
You know you are never allowed to talk.
You will suffer a lot for this."
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"Sister
Clarence.
You have commited a mortal sin by letting
this girl see the daylight again.
All the virgins placed in our care are by fate destined
to give their lives to suffer for mankind,
and it is our duty to carry out their torment
as officious as possible.
You must know, that allowing these girls any relief
from their need and pain, will worsen
the sufferings for the poor sinful souls down in hell.
Devouted people pays us to keep their daughters in pain,
so their relatives in hell can be relieved.
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Deaply ashamed
sister Clarence
goes to receive her punishement,
dragging her new chains through
the corridors with a clanking sound.
She realizes it was the devil, who
made her feel compassion for that girl.
The girl had been crying for her mom every
day sins she was imprisoned, and
had pleaded for seeing some light,
telling she always had been afraid of sleeping
in the dark.
At last she had tuched sister Clarece heart,
but it had only been the devil trying to tempt her.
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Sister Clarenceīs
punishment is
one month standing in a cage,
and she has to wear chains for
three years.
It is a very light punishment according to her big sin.
Only because it is her first punishment, and
she confessed her sin at once, she
is not punished harder.
Sister Clarence has learned her lesson.
She will never again show any mercy
against any of the basement girls.
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Only daughters
from very
influential families become real nuns like
sister Clarence, and gain authority over
the insignificant girls in the basement cells.
Those from the less influent belongs to
a lowere class of nuns, and have
to wear chains, and are used for
all the cleaning, cooking and other work
done in the convent.
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They do have a bed
to sleep in, but
they are are held secured at night, so they
canīt do sinful things.
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But fare the most who
enteres the convent, would envy the lower class nuns.
95 percent belongs to the insignificant girls.
For these there are no beds, decent food or clean clothes.
Only degrading and suffering for the rest of their lives.
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There dosnīt pass
a single week without
a new young woman or girl
is standing before the mother superior,
stripped off all her former wealth and identity,
to begine a new life in pain.
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Generations
of yong virgin females have
prayed for mankind before the skulls of their
predecessors, knowing sometime in the
future, their own skulls will be placed
in the walls, and their descendants
would be forced to pray before them.
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"No auntie -
Please donīt leave me here -
I will do anything, you ask me to, but please not this!"
Many girls like Louise were forced to enter
the convent, by familly members, who wanted
them out of the way.
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Two months later:
"You must pray for your honourable aunt.
Itīs entirely due to her, you are here and
can spend your life suffering for mankind.
You must always be deaply gratefull to her!"
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Others were brought here
only because
of their good looks.
Itīs difficult to see it now, but only 2 years ago,
this girl made all people turn their heads
after her, when she walked down the main street.
Also the bishop had a hard time trying to
keep his eyes away from the always
cheerful and smiling straw blond girl.
This was of course a great sin.
The girl had to suffer for this!
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Very few entered voluntary.
Reneé was one of them.
She had been very religious, and was
very frightened, when she fell in love with
a handsome young man.
She had been raised with, this was a great sin, and
believed it was the devil tempting her.
She did not have enough money to enter
the convent as a nun, but her priest told
her, she could enter the cloistered convent, if she
gave the church all she had.
The nuns are very happy with her.
Every time they looks into her cell, they can see, she
through starvation and denial, is
trying to punish her own wicked body
for all the sinfull feelings.
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